My Miscarriage

TW: This video is about my experience with Pregnancy and Miscarriage. Please do not watch if those topics are triggering for you.


  1. Madison Kokot

    Madison Kokot

    46 минутын өмнө

    i feel so sad for you

  2. Steve Nguyen

    Steve Nguyen

    Цагийн өмнө

    I'm sorry for your loss.

  3. Wendy N

    Wendy N

    Цагийн өмнө

    You probably won't see this message because of all the comments but I just want to reach out to you and send some love. Your video popped up on my youtube and I just wish I could give you a big hug. My daughter is almost 3 and about 6 months ago I had a miscarriage. So I have two kids but one baby is in heaven with yours. I completely understand the pain you are going through. There are no words to explain how painful it is. You are not alone. I am hurting along with you. I am so sorry you lost your baby. I will pray for you.

  4. Lila Luftikuss

    Lila Luftikuss

    8 цагийн өмнө

    Thanks for sharing.

  5. Leah Whitcher

    Leah Whitcher

    8 цагийн өмнө

    This ur okay girl just believe u can and one day u will :)

  6. ruby Edits

    ruby Edits

    20 цагийн өмнө


  7. Mommy Sandy

    Mommy Sandy

    22 цагийн өмнө

    Oh, honey...this video made me so sad for you. I had a miscarriage back in the mid 90's, when I was trying desperately to get pregnant. I experienced something similar to you, a mix of positive and negative pregnancy tests, and then finally being sure that I WAS pregnant...and then experiencing a very painful miscarriage...both physically, mentally, emotionally. It's a devestating process. Sending you much love.

  8. I heart Galaxy

    I heart Galaxy

    Өдрийн өмнө

    When I was four my mom was pregnant and we told everyone and all I wanted was a sibling my whole life but she had a miscarriage and I thought I would never have a sibling but a couple years later my mom was pregnant again and gave birth to a happy healthy baby boy so don’t lose hope on having another baby because it still might happen you just have to be patient

  9. I heart Galaxy

    I heart Galaxy

    Өдрийн өмнө

    Colleen to be able to talk to millions of people about your miscarriage you should know you are such a strong person and again I’m so sorry

  10. Terry Stinson

    Terry Stinson

    Өдрийн өмнө

    It's ok collen you go girl

  11. Sleepii._Babi


    Өдрийн өмнө

    I'm so sorry, honey.. I hope you feel better.. 💙 we are here for you!

  12. Isabel Goodall

    Isabel Goodall

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  13. Anouk Van der Berg

    Anouk Van der Berg

    Өдрийн өмнө

    Hi umm... so I would just like to say that my mom just went through a miscarriage like a few days ago and umm it was very hard on the family she was 6 months pregnant we had already gotten the baby room ready and now whenever my mom walks in there she starts crying and crying and sometimes I cry but not in front of her because I don’t want to make her feel worse the baby was a boy is name was going to be Samuel and my parents are lesbian so it’s more common but it was still very hard we were all excited for three kids and so I understand even tho it didn’t happen to me I am only 13 but I understand so I hope u feel better and I am thinking of u thank u Coleen have a great day❤️🥺

  14. Cherry Blossom 1313

    Cherry Blossom 1313

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    So sorry for your loss my deepest condolences may your lil Angel rest in paradise 🙏👼❤️

  15. Av's Vlogs

    Av's Vlogs

    Өдрийн өмнө

    Oh I'm so sorry I'm only 11 and don't know much about pregnancies but I know what a miscarriage is and I remember when my mom was pregnant around the same time u were with Flynn in a miscarriage was my worst nightmare to happen with my baby brother that is now 1 1/2 I Love ur Channel You ate so strongly beautiful

  16. makeitezr93


    Өдрийн өмнө

    Take all the time you need to heal momma. You are a strong person and a fearless momma. And just don’t read the comments too much. The only important thing to remember is that there was nothing you could have done to change it.

  17. Gracie Peterson

    Gracie Peterson

    Өдрийн өмнө

    so sad i am so sorry for you

  18. Gabriela Cardenas

    Gabriela Cardenas

    2 өдрийн өмнө

    We love you girl! And your family of 4! We know that some day you’ll be 4 here in earth💕

  19. Super Mario

    Super Mario

    2 өдрийн өмнө


  20. Elise McLelland

    Elise McLelland

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  21. Bubbles Thompson

    Bubbles Thompson

    2 өдрийн өмнө

    Aww I feel so bad for u I have had a similar experience so I feel u girl❤

  22. Carrie Rose

    Carrie Rose

    2 өдрийн өмнө

    It breaks my heart that you have to worry about people hating on you during your lowest moments. Miscarriages are devastating and very difficult to talk about. I feel your pain as I have had 4 miscarriages. It changes you forever. Sending love your way.

  23. AaliyahsAngelic


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  24. Maddie Moojestic

    Maddie Moojestic

    2 өдрийн өмнө

    Colleen, I am so sorry for that. You have been so strong through everything that you have been though. You are the toughest person in the world. Keep going on and keep being you. You are amazing and I love you

  25. Suzy Q Rosales

    Suzy Q Rosales

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    I’m so sorry for your loss it will get better I suffered a miscarriage too and it’s so hard but ur going to be ok I ended up getting pregnant in 3 months

  26. Regina Soules

    Regina Soules

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    So sorry for you and ur families loss. 😢

  27. Harr's Cuisine

    Harr's Cuisine

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    I am sorry this happened to you. I've experienced this several times myself. Planned or not, you are allowed to have the feelings you have. Take your time to be sad about it. Even though it sounds strange. My heart goes out to you.

  28. Littlest wolf

    Littlest wolf

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    It's a horrible feeling seeing your favorite youtuber go through something

  29. sweet phangurl

    sweet phangurl

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    We gotta be grateful for the blessing that is motherhood.

  30. Jennifer Philpott

    Jennifer Philpott

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    Oh I’m sorry for u Colleen

  31. Heibe Plays Roblox 2

    Heibe Plays Roblox 2

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    how does your 2nd channel(miranda sings)that u said isn't yours but it is because you and her look the same and sound and you had her diamond play button and how did you have 10 million there but 8 mil here

  32. Juliathefox 56

    Juliathefox 56

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    This woman cant catch a break, she struggles so much in her life, but yet, shes so open with us, im so sorry this happened to you babe...

  33. Violet Wilson

    Violet Wilson

    3 өдрийн өмнө

    I'm so sorry for your loss colleen. ❤

  34. Melissa Gough

    Melissa Gough

    4 өдрийн өмнө

    Nobody should have to go through that I just want to give you a big hug

  35. Zoey Hairston

    Zoey Hairston

    4 өдрийн өмнө

    Hey dont push ur self in too struggle it happens some time just know we will suport u always and forever♡︎

  36. Erin


    4 өдрийн өмнө

    Just to clarify for other women and uterus-havers, a pregnancy test is totally inaccurate after the allotted time. Its very, very common for negative tests to "turn positive". It's just because the chemicals change over time with evaporation. The test is done after the timer goes off, basically. Unfortunately these delayed quasi-false positives are super common and it causes a ton of confusion.

    • Caroline's DIY Corner

      Caroline's DIY Corner

      3 цагийн өмнө

      are you trying to deny that she had a miscarriage wth

  37. Lyla Griffo

    Lyla Griffo

    4 өдрийн өмнө

    I am so sorry that this happened you deserve better🥺❤️

  38. Liliana Martinez

    Liliana Martinez

    4 өдрийн өмнө

    I am soooo sorry

  39. belenanderin


    4 өдрийн өмнө

    I’m so sorry this happened to you, love.

  40. Jack


    4 өдрийн өмнө

    Even though this is 2 months later, I’m really sorry about your miscarriage. Keep being strong!

  41. Caitlin Hutchinson

    Caitlin Hutchinson

    5 өдрийн өмнө

    Love you

  42. Maria A

    Maria A

    5 өдрийн өмнө

    You are so brave and amazing I think it’s great that you are talking about this and you are so strong.

  43. Hadassah Schwartz

    Hadassah Schwartz

    5 өдрийн өмнө

    I'm so sorry. Miscarriage is such a lonely pain. Your baby will be safe in your heart forever. I hope you continue to find healing.

  44. kaliyah ysabel vlogs

    kaliyah ysabel vlogs

    5 өдрийн өмнө


  45. Debbie Leib

    Debbie Leib

    5 өдрийн өмнө

    Where here for you, we love you, and we will always be here for you!

  46. Imari Forde

    Imari Forde

    6 өдрийн өмнө

    I am so so sorry for you

  47. Kate Goldie

    Kate Goldie

    6 өдрийн өмнө

    I am so sorry Colleen

  48. Carina Ka

    Carina Ka

    6 өдрийн өмнө

    When I first watched your video, I was pregnant. A few weeks later, at 10 weeks pregnant, I had a miscarriage. Now I watch your video again and your words are exactly what I feel: You have set your mind to how your future is going to be and it is just devastating. Thank you for being so open about it!

  49. Inez Lucas

    Inez Lucas

    6 өдрийн өмнө

    I’m so sorry my girl it’s ok my girl you are so strong love my girl l love you it’s ok my girl

  50. Just Jayna

    Just Jayna

    6 өдрийн өмнө

    oh you poor women that is so sad my mum had a miscarriage when i was younger and she was so upset and i know how it feels to lose a baby but not in your position i am so sorry for you but luckily you have the best family to help through this time also if people are that rude to say anything hurtful they are so wrong don't listen to them and love and look after yourself love you xx

  51. Sofia Palm

    Sofia Palm

    6 өдрийн өмнө

    I'm so sorry!!! 💔💔😭 You're strong you can get through this!

  52. Shirin Rahman

    Shirin Rahman

    6 өдрийн өмнө

    Don't lose hope

  53. Taram1987


    7 өдрийн өмнө

    i only send love and kindness to you. very sorry for your loss, i hope you can grow strength from your loss.

  54. Julianne Plays

    Julianne Plays

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    I’m so sorry I hope you feel better soon 😢🥺😩😭

  55. Jared B

    Jared B

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    Becca: I'm so sorry. I had 3 miscarriages and the mental pain was worse than the physical pain. I'm pregnant now with my 5th and so grateful but my hips hurt so bad. Counting down the days. Thank you for being brave and talking about your experience. Miscarriages break my heart. You dream about your future with that baby in your family! I got a necklace from fierce deer on Etsy honoring my family and 3 miscarriage angel babies. Sending love to you.

  56. Kristine Nold

    Kristine Nold

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    I'm so so sorry from the bottom of my heart. I had a traumatic pregnacy as well, and have been through miscarriage too. I really know youre struggling, and I see you. I'm here for you holding space. Sending so much love

  57. Bestie Vlogs

    Bestie Vlogs

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    Omg R.I.P 🥺🥺🥺🥺 You will always be a mother of two just ones in heaven 🥺

  58. f r o g t o o t

    f r o g t o o t

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    Oh my goodness I’m so sorry I’m crying my eyes out right now I hope you feel better soon

  59. Ruth Jansegers

    Ruth Jansegers

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    i love you colleen

  60. Megan Evans

    Megan Evans

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  61. Blanca Cuevas

    Blanca Cuevas

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    ik im late but feel realy bad and i hope your doing better now

  62. Peyton Noel

    Peyton Noel

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    i’m soooo sorry for your lost. we all are her for you. i love you. my grandma had some miscarriages and it wasn’t easy for her but it will get better❤️. it just takes a while. i hope you get better soon❤️❤️❤️

  63. B Hannah

    B Hannah

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    You can have another and your rainbow baby will be the one to hand pick the next baby in heaven

  64. The Loser

    The Loser

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    Bro I just found out and it was on my birthday..

  65. Eden Bell

    Eden Bell

    7 өдрийн өмнө

    I just recently found out that my sister is pregnant I’m so excited but I’m also terrified what might happen. I already love that baby so much.

  66. I.Am. Kamryn.DuPage

    I.Am. Kamryn.DuPage

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    I feel so terrible. I have no idea how bad a miscarriage is, neither do I know how pregnancy is. I bet your heart is broken, and your true fans will be here for you no matter what. Love you Colleen!!!💜😊

  67. Katinka Bull

    Katinka Bull

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    Colleen is such a strong women she inspired me to be better and try to live my life she is so sweet and kind she does everything in her Power to make the world a better place. She has saved so many lives. Colleen you are so strong we love you keep going you inspire me ever day I love you

  68. Noor Musallam

    Noor Musallam

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    It okay it happens to a lot of people like Rebecca but because she stayed positive she got through it girl don’t worry 😉 and ik that everyone of the was them they would be in the same way but all of them stayed positive don’t be sacred and no one is judgeing u it is not your fault if I didn’t want a baby and got pregante and had a misscurge I would be sadddd and just because u don’t like being preagnet does not mean u don’t want another baby

  69. Kriti Maitre

    Kriti Maitre

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    i pray for the world's worth courage and strength to reach you. keep your head up queen, much power to you

  70. Ella Jamil

    Ella Jamil

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    You are so loved and that baby that passed is with Jesus and I support you for you

  71. Addilynn Royals

    Addilynn Royals

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    Stay strong Rebecca Zamolo is going through the same thing to.

  72. Shreya Deshpande

    Shreya Deshpande

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    I really dont know what to say here. but all I wanna say is we love u and u have our full support. god bless u

  73. Christy Emmons

    Christy Emmons

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    ALL YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID!!! NO ONE WHOM HAS NOT EXPERIENCED 😭 LOSS THEMSELVES CANNOT UNDERSTAND THE PAIN AT ANY STAGES OF A PREGNANCY LOSS!! I do understand I LOSS my first Daughter at 21wks over 30yrs ago, and although the pain is STILL there it's just different. I PRAY 🙏 for YOU & YOUR FAMILY

  74. Tara Raskey

    Tara Raskey

    8 өдрийн өмнө

    Miscarriage sucks! I lost my son in 2010 and i think about him daily!!! You never get over it! Just keep your head up and push threw the pain. I am so sorry for your loss.

  75. Miss Evas Adventures

    Miss Evas Adventures

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    I am so sorry

  76. May Jenkins

    May Jenkins

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    you are not alone i lost twins and the hurt is understandable ..... hugs from me to you

  77. Robert Wiers

    Robert Wiers

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    I’m so sorry for your loss... I would never imagine what I would do if my sister Mariah had a miscarriage. Thankfully, she had no miscarriages. We have two lovely girls who are my, and my little sister Emily’s neices. Their names are Cyrena, and Giana... and I am so happy I have my two beautiful neices. However... I am really worried, and I feared about what would happen to them...

  78. Loes C

    Loes C

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    Hey don’t give up,my sister got pregnant for the first time with a baby boy(DJ💙) in 2019 and had a stillbirth in Sept. Tried again,another stillbirth in April 2020(girl this time💕Ava),tried again and had a healthy baby boy in September of this year😭😭💙💙💙and now she’s accidentally 2-3 months with another. I know it SUCKS,only advice I can possibly think to give is take care of yourself and try to stay strong💙

  79. nannygoatj


    9 өдрийн өмнө

    I'm so sorry, Colleen. I can see it's so painful for you.

  80. Lils Hub

    Lils Hub

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    When my biggest sister wasn’t born or me or my big brother was born , my mum was pregnant and then my mum had a miscarriage:(

  81. Mariah jade Bentley

    Mariah jade Bentley

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    I’m so sorry love!! ❤️❤️ stay strong!!!

  82. Madison Brousseau

    Madison Brousseau

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    im so sorry that it happen my prayers are with you

  83. Cassandra Martin

    Cassandra Martin

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    I am so sorry love! I could never imagine what you feel right now... I love you so much and I hope you are doing well 💕 I cried throughout the whole video 😭♥️ God bless you and your family 💞

  84. Erica Williams

    Erica Williams

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    I am very vocal about how much I hated being pregnant. I get HG and depression as well. But I love being a mom. I am very thankful to have two healthy sons. But I will never stop hurting for the daughter I lost in my 2nd trimester. Her pregnancy was awful and I was young and very much not ready to be a mom but that didn't stop the pain. She is part of me forever and always. Grieve however you need to for as long as you need to and f*** anyone who has anything unkind to say. No one knows your heart but our babies.

  85. Simpxy_ Brianna

    Simpxy_ Brianna

    9 өдрийн өмнө

    I’m so sorry for your loss I promise I’ll be ok my mom had a miscarriage for my little brother/sister I’m so sorry I will pray for your baby

  86. Hannah Cort

    Hannah Cort

    10 өдрийн өмнө

    you are a mom of two bby

  87. Becca Goodman

    Becca Goodman

    10 өдрийн өмнө

    i'm so sorry..💔 sending prayers🙏🏻🙏🏻

  88. Beth Sarapa

    Beth Sarapa

    10 өдрийн өмнө

    It's ok don't listen to haters and HATERS BACK OFF NO

    • Beth Sarapa

      Beth Sarapa

      10 өдрийн өмнө

      I ment to say now

  89. Angela Harvey

    Angela Harvey

    10 өдрийн өмнө

    I'm so sorry for you and your family I hope you are all coping and I understand what miscarriages can do and make u all so upset 😔 u must be all be so upset sending my love 🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️

  90. Alice In WonderLand

    Alice In WonderLand

    10 өдрийн өмнө

    Dont worry, we lov😍e you.

  91. Kim J E

    Kim J E

    10 өдрийн өмнө

    My darling, I’m so sorry to hear your loss. Well done for sharing this, you have opened your heart and I know it will help others. Sending you a millions cuddles! Xxx

  92. shelives4christ


    10 өдрийн өмнө

    Yeah pain is VERY common is pregnancy so that does not mean y’all should bully her build Colleen up not put her down

  93. Emily Martin

    Emily Martin

    11 өдрийн өмнө

    I'm not sure what to say in a situation like this. I hope you do a follow-up video about what you wish people had said to be supportive of you during the grief. You are in my thoughts.

  94. Hannah Camacho

    Hannah Camacho

    11 өдрийн өмнө

    Sooo much love to you especially during this patch in the road❤️❤️ you are so strong! And I am so amazed by you every day💕💕

  95. Alycia Adams

    Alycia Adams

    11 өдрийн өмнө

    I would never wish a miscarriage on my own worst enemy. The emotional aspect is almost unbearable at times. The pain is unlike any other. Sending you love and light.

  96. Josh Rodgers

    Josh Rodgers

    11 өдрийн өмнө

    I love you and don't cry

  97. Queenie


    11 өдрийн өмнө

    my little brother died at 8 months pregnant. my parents told everyone, bought all the stuff and even gave him a name. is it ok that to this day i'm still completely devastated by this? like my whole life i wished for a little brother and then when i was 10 i find out i had one but never got to meet him. am i allowed to feel like this? am i allowed to talk about it? am i allowed to miss him?

    • Chloe M

      Chloe M

      5 өдрийн өмнө

      absolutely. your feelings are so incredibly valid. you had plans, emotions, and dreams that you wanted to do with your brother, and you were unable to fulfill them. i had the same thing happen with my little brother, and it still hurts to this day. you and your feelings are so valid and you are so loved.

  98. Joseph Buckley

    Joseph Buckley

    11 өдрийн өмнө

    you are a champion I believe in you and I love you

  99. islamlover


    11 өдрийн өмнө

    i have never seen colleen be so sad we love you!!!

  100. Emma Barrett

    Emma Barrett

    11 өдрийн өмнө

    We love you so much, you’re so brave ❤️